There is the initial awakening to a day unexplored–full of possibilities–there is waking to the final awareness of the day, sleep. Day or night, the energy of being is its own clarity.
It is like a river, sometimes rushing but other times, meandering to the sea. Every day, I put in 
my boat and set my oar. How hard I row or whether I row at all depends on the energy of the day. But always there is a current.
The meditative state is my compass.
Bringing it into the energy of the day sounds more like a goal than an eventuality. It takes practice. Meditation is more than measured minutes–it is a state of being.
When I meet rapids, the meditative state allows me a momentary pause for a nanosecond of objectivity, and sometimes, that will shoot me through.
Other times, I crash upon the rocks and get soaking wet. I have built many boats and no doubt, I will build many more.
Bringing the meditative state into my day gives me confidence, whether I am building a boat or have managed to ride the rapids. Less and less do I push through rapids best left to others.
I remove my boat and walk around.
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I started meditating in the early 90’s not out of spiritual need, but because I was going thru a family crisis involving my teenage son. I was so desperate there was simply nothing else I could think of to do in order to survive the stress.
We got thru that situation eventually but I have continued to “sit” daily ever since and now I could not start my day without it
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I have not been meditating as long as you have but our situations sound similar. Meditation was the only thing I could think to do in order to survive. Essentially, I lost everything and had to start over at the age of 58. I’ve never been so scared or so desperate but I got through it. I cannot start my day without “sitting.” Thanks, Craig!
Karen
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