Larger-Than-Life Appetite

A colleague once said to me, “You can’t be passionate about everything.” I was sure I could and responded similarly, maybe even dismissively.

Years later, I consider her observation more a question than a statement. Maybe that’s why it has stayed with me. I think we were both talking about hunger, although I doubt either one would have found that word acceptable.

At all costs, she avoided “running on empty,” while I did not know how else to live other than filling up and spilling over. Every. Single. Drop.

My larger-than-life appetite marked most of my life. I poured passion into whatever occupied me. It was exhausting physically; emotionally, I echoed.

Mindfulness showed me it was my choices that left me hungry. Mindfulness is life unfiltered, pure awareness. Each moment offers me a slice of life, and all I need do is experience it. There is more than enough.

Each slice is another choice, sometimes from a completely different pie. But my focus is exploring each choice–sometimes, it’s a hard swallow.

Then, I physically quiet myself. Eventually the gap between thoughts grows and the mind stills. On some days, that gap is infinitesimal but practice has shown me it exists. I need not hunger.

The more you are willing to just let the world

be something you’re aware of, the more it will

let you be who you are—

the awareness, the self, the Atman, the soul.

(Michael A. Singer, The Untethered Soul)

Aim for Even posts offer equanimity a dose at a time. No day or dose is ever the same, even if the aim is. You may read about the origins of Aim for Even here or on this site’s About page.

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