Old behaviors easily re-emerge as new guises—they are such great actors. What seemed a solution withers into yet another variation on a theme.
So it is with this morning. I could call it a setback or reversal but any qualitative label is just that.
What it feels like–from the gut–is a new life lens, another way to experience being human. With the new lens comes perspective, one which has its own revelations.
What I discover is yet another facet of fear. There seems to be no shortage of its disguises, either, especially its delusion of safety.
Of course, just being alive is a risk, as I am reminded by the spider that lives inside my front door. Of sorts, we are in relationship, as much as either one of us has noticed.
May I remember the spider the next time I give into fear. Her risk is considerable compared to mine.
On this day, I am reminded that what is will be what was.
Be patient and endure while
The wind will calm, the waves subside
Draw back a step and realize
The boundless ocean, the vastness of heaven
(Translated from Chinese)