Tag Archives: energy of existence

Expectation is Exhausting

Sea Oat 1013Zen keeps me from anticipating a situation that feels similar to one I’ve met before. One is past and one is now. No amount of anticipation will make one the other.

It’s exhausting, expectation.

It is like telling my head to drive and telling my heart to sit in the backseat. And be quiet. I’ll let you know when you’re needed.

Except my ego is never going to ask for directions, until all else has been exhausted, and even then….

My ego always knows the solution and offers it up without asking. The course of my heart is consistency, a steady beat absorbing the ego’s momentary spikes.

It is my heart that advises: “Wait. Let the moment open. So much is available to you.”

There is an array of life lenses from which to view existence.  I don’t have to look through Zen but when I do, it is my heart that responds.

Aim for Even posts offer equanimity a dose at a time. No day or dose is ever the same, even if the aim is. You may read about the origins of Aim for Even here or on this site’s About page

Staying Open to Heaven and Hell

We don’t say, “Hell is bad and heaven is good” or

 “Get rid of hell and just seek heaven,”

but we encourage ourselves to develop an open heart

and an open mind to heaven, to hell, to everything.

Why?

Because only then can we realize that no matter what comes along,

we’re always standing at the center of the world in the middle of sacred

space, and everything that comes into that circle and exists with us there

has come to teach us what we need to know.


Pema Chodron Wisdom of No Escape

What Pema Chodron describes as the wisdom of no escape is what I call living a routine of no routine. It is what Zen has taught me, and although I find the practice remarkably difficult at times, I know it to be sound.

Beginning the Day 092015

Living a routine of no routine is being acutely aware of the energy available to one’s self rather than being tied to an arbitrary schedule.

A daily dose of equanimity is the pulse of my practice.

Appointments, deadlines, and all requirements are the energy boundaries for the day. Within those parameters exist creativity and curiosity, defining the necessary as well as the possible.

At day’s end, the unique structure dissipates, a wiping clean of the daily slate.

A routine of no routine keeps me “standing at the center of the world, no matter what.”

Aim for Even posts offer equanimity in daily doses. No day or dose is ever the same, even if the aim is. You may read about the origins of Aim for Even here or on this site’s About page. 

Building in a World of Sand

You should try to…make an understanding with yourself that you are not your body, you are something bigger.

That is your work on this earth, do you see? Every experience here is to teach you to do that.

Living, dying, every experience.

(Roland Merullo, Breakfast with Buddha,  P. 275)

We are wondrous world builders, ever vigilant to outside threats. We want to taking-a-look-0714last forever just as we are, and we go to great lengths to protect ourselves.

We are so similar to the sand mandala, constructed with carefully chosen colored sand, each grain its own world. Once the mandala is complete, it is dismantled and released into water, and the process begins again.

When we die, we are “dust to dust” or “ashes to ashes.” Like the mandala, our bodies are no more but we are the energy of existence. We are everywhere.

Better to tend to our work on this earth as “Buddha” advises in Merullo’s novel–“to see a world in a grain of sand–after all, we are forever.

Aim for Even posts offer equanimity in daily doses. No day or dose is ever the same, even if the aim is.  You may read about the origins of Aim for Even here or on this site’s About page.