Tag Archives: routine of no routine

Staying with the Small Stuff

I find solace in curiosity, in knowing each moment is unique. No matter how many times I perform a certain task, in this moment the experience is new.

Who knows how it may all turn out.

What I’m discovering is that if I stay curious, equanimity is not as difficult–even in the really hard moments, perhaps especially then.

Equanimity may be most evident in the small stuff, the routine of daily life. Here, my chronic illness is an advantage for my time is mine.  My day opens with meditation and yoga but when that day begins may be at 4 AM or 10 AM or noon.

I live a “routine of no routine” routinely.

This seems small stuff because it is. Yet, there was a time–even after the day job ended–that if I did not rise by a certain time, the day was over before it began. Now, I aim for even, and see where that takes me.

The result is I think less and accomplish so much more.

I immerse myself in the task at hand such as the slicing of a Pink Lady apple for my breakfast. The world around me expands. Occasionally, there is revelation. At first, that took me out of my moment but now—with all the other thoughts–it rolls on by. My mind evens out.

I think less and discover more. Once, my pursuit of the impossible blinded me to the details of what is possible. Why pursue the future when so much awaits me now?

Aim for Even posts offer equanimity a dose at a time. No day or dose is ever the same, even if the aim is. You may read about the origins of Aim for Even here or on this site’s About page.

Staying Open to Heaven and Hell

We don’t say, “Hell is bad and heaven is good” or

 “Get rid of hell and just seek heaven,”

but we encourage ourselves to develop an open heart

and an open mind to heaven, to hell, to everything.


Because only then can we realize that no matter what comes along,

we’re always standing at the center of the world in the middle of sacred

space, and everything that comes into that circle and exists with us there

has come to teach us what we need to know.

Pema Chodron Wisdom of No Escape

What Pema Chodron describes as the wisdom of no escape is what I call living a routine of no routine. It is what Zen has taught me, and although I find the practice remarkably difficult at times, I know it to be sound.

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Living a routine of no routine is being acutely aware of the energy available to one’s self rather than being tied to an arbitrary schedule.

A daily dose of equanimity is the pulse of my practice.

Appointments, deadlines, and all requirements are the energy boundaries for the day. Within those parameters exist creativity and curiosity, defining the necessary as well as the possible.

At day’s end, the unique structure dissipates, a wiping clean of the daily slate.

A routine of no routine keeps me “standing at the center of the world, no matter what.”

Aim for Even posts offer equanimity in daily doses. No day or dose is ever the same, even if the aim is. You may read about the origins of Aim for Even here or on this site’s About page. 

Finding the Familiar

As aging beings, feline EmmaRose and I are forgoing the way we once lived. More and more, our bodies surprise. Less and less is there any choice involved.in-her-sun-0413

It feels as if we are living a routine of no routine, easier for me to accept than for EmmaRose (ER).

Always, she lives in the moment— I can only aspire—that I appreciate if not readily accept impermanence may be an advantage.

Regardless, it is our breath, that “fundamental unit of risk” taking us into one experience and out of another. For ER, breath is a no-brainer.

I, on the other hand, either open myself to what is occurring or attach to a related thought often involving finance, relationship, security, or all three.

It is ER’s mindfulness that brings me back to the moment, taking myself out of me and into a broader experience. The “what ifs” dissipate in favor of focus.

Increasingly, ER is uncertain of her surroundings or what it was that brought her into the next room. I know the feeling. Most of the time, I shrug and give up without concern, as ER once did.

Now, she continues to wander unless I help her to return to the familiar. Some days, I find it for both of us.

Aim for Even posts offer equanimity in daily doses. No day or dose is ever the same, even if the aim is. You may read about the origins of Aim for Even here or on this site’s About page.