A breeze of equanimity continues to clear my brain fog; when necessary, it takes a broom to the cobwebs.
This airing out of thought allows me to be in the moment, my only real frame of experience.
At best, my life is a single stitch in a never-ending tapestry, a speck of dust within the multi-verse. It is a perspective that eludes more often than not
But Chödrön gently reminds me that sometimes I have perspective and other times, I don’t. If I am not fearless, then I’m not fearless. What I am is afraid. I need to look deeper into the experience the moment is offering me.
And, I need to be down with it. I need to let my emotions swirl–hopelessness, frustration, even despair–each moment I experience is the “perfect teacher.” It is my traveling professor and knows what ails me. I will discover what I need if I just stay in the moment. It’s up to me.
Should I take the day and turn it upside down looking for what I will not find? Why not take a closer look at the experience that is presenting itself–explore it, just a bit.
I, along with everything and everyone else in this physical dimension, am here to experience being alive. There is no need to dissociate or to escape from any moment. It is all an experience and no one event or situation stays the same.
Awareness is found in our pleasure and our pain,
our confusion and our wisdom, available in each
moment of our weird, unfathomable,
ordinary everyday lives.
(Pema Chödrön, When Things Fall Apart)
Ever, there is the breeze of equanimity to clear the fog, to catch the cobwebs.