I was once told that no one valued solitude as much as I. Nothing in my response was helpful for in Zen one does not explain, one experiences.
Yes, that is the experience, letting go of ego. Chögyam Trungpa says it’s a matter of “admitting the helplessness of ego to control its world and secure itself.”
In an ever-changing world, trusting the self is to become comfortable with “groundlessness” as Pema Chödrön calls it. Certainly, it’s a lifetime practice and one not without its challenges.
After all, we are always in relationship, even with the insect in the room. On so many days, it is in relationship that I begin.